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Sad and here

brushfirefairytales — Sat, 22 May 2010 17:28:02 +0000

Hey. It’s obvious why I’m here. I re-read you and figured out that I usually blog during my sad times. And it’s right here, right now.

I might be too sad to talk.

And now I’m certain I am.

Although I can’t quite say that I was sad for all the hours of the day. I had a great time with my friends. It’s been a while since I last saw them and it’s great to catch up with them even just for a short time. Well come to think of it, it was kinda long. I didn’t expect it to be like that because I planned to join the choir practice at 8, but I ended up going home at around midnight. We watched Shrek 4 in IMAX! I’d love to watch more movies in IMAX theaters. I think they’re better than the 3D cinemas… whenever I have extra money. Hahaha.

So there, I’m blank. I want to eat buko pie but I’m still waiting to be hungry. There’s no point in eating when you’re not hungry.

I blab all the time when I’m sad. And surprisingly, I have a lot to say. I really didn’t think of it that way.

Tomorrow’s a Sunday but I have work. I chose Saturday as my rest day, so there you go.

And don’t get me wrong. You’re not my meantime blog. You’re my only blog. Actually, I wanted to post in Tumblr but I guess it’s too public for me. I am more comfortable with sharing everything in this low profile blog that I love and cherish and treasure. =D

A happy thought, nothing more.

brushfirefairytales — Sat, 06 Mar 2010 02:23:15 +0000

Some happy thoughts form from past experiences, some from dreams. Sometimes happy thoughts make us so happy that we add expectations to it; like expecting past experiences to happen again or dreams to happen in reality. And when it doesn’t, we get disappointed. The happy thought is reduced to a want; an explosive uncontrolled desire of the self which ends up destroying all the memories and the dreams that once triggered the ex-happy thought.

So a happy thought, must be that and nothing more. And even if the universe has the power to conspire for you to get what you want, you must not expect. Though you can hope, which is another beauty of the happy thought.

And there is a difference between expecting and hoping. In hoping, you consider a possibility that it won’t happen. It is uncertain. In expecting, there’s no room for maybe, just a yes or a no.

It’s funny that in my past blogs, I always say “think happy thoughts” like it’s so hard for me to find any. Now that I have plenty, I am talking about happy thoughts and its limits.

I am such a weirdo. Good day.

brushfirefairytales — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 02:37:46 +0000

I hope people understand how strict my boss can be. I hope they also understand that despite this, I love my job. So it’s not about me following his rules all the time, it’s about me wanting to follow his rules strictly on time, all the time.

I have a new job. And by new, I mean it is foreign to me. Other than my foreign boss, my work is foreign to me as well. I did not study this during college, nor did I get any experience like it from my previous jobs. I am like an OJT, although no one teaches me and a lot is expected from me. Of course my boss doesn’t say it, but I feel it. I have a lot to learn and a lot to do too.

I am facing a challenge, my friends.

Please bear with me as I try to prove myself to me and my boss. Please support me on this one.

2010!

brushfirefairytales — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 02:44:19 +0000

You didn’t think I’d completely forget you, did you? Facebook and photoblogging are great, but you are something I’ll never get tired of. It’s just that you eat a lot of time so I avoid spending time with you. Last night I went to a gig, slept at 4AM today, woke up at 8:30AM because of the noise of hammer pounding, the sunlight and the smell of pollution. That couldn’t be anymore natural, right? So I’m guessing that the whole world has contrived to wake me up early today.

I have tried to get my sleep back but I knew that it would lead nowhere. So I stopped joking myself and got up, with my hurting eyes and my growling tummy. Okay, I was hungry. But I wasn’t in the mood to eat. I have been feeling a bit fat lately, since I eat a lot in my current work. Oh yes, I am working again! Ta Da!

I am working in a Japanese company. I used to work part-time, but now that they urgently need someone to help with the recruitment process, they decided to make me full-time. I like my boss, he’s fun and he’s not bossy. He’s kind and generous and likes joking. He’s having a hard time speaking English so I help him with it.

Anyway, I’m having problems with my bladder recently, I don’t know what’s got into it but it makes me go to the CR every hour. I don’t like it very much especially that my schedule is jam-packed recently because I interview and then I also have classes with Japanese students.

Now my eyes hurt but I don’t want to pretend that I can still sleep at this hour. I might be late for work later. Yes I work on Saturdays too. But every other week, I get the Saturday off.

I am not allowed to divulge information regarding my work to my students, and I’m wondering if I were allowed to do it to my friends. Haha.

Hmmm. Maybe I really need to try to get some sleep, even for just a few hours.

Bonding with the oldies

brushfirefairytales — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 02:31:51 +0000

Last night was great. We arrived just in time for the food to arrive too muahahaha! I got to know some of my tito-in-law’s family, and I was happy to converse with them. They were mostly old people, and I’m so kulang when it comes to having old people in my life, so it was a nice experience for me. I actually want to visit them this Christmas to bring them some fruitcake or something. I like doing things for other people.

So there, the food was great, yeah. Especially the camaron!!! Everybody knows I love seafood! <3

I’m excited for Christmas!!!! I’m excited for simbang gabi, bibingka, christmas parties, spending time with friends, aaaaand giving gifts! Hehehe! I’m actually more excited about buying gifts for friends than receiving any from them! Hehe. But I keep buying stuff for me too hahaha oh well. I should go back to playing with my DS… or start fixing my things for a change.

Back to work today. I hope no one grills me about my lie later. Hehehe. Anyway, I’ll try to make right the wrong. If that makes sense. and if that’s possible. Hehehe.

Hello choppy sentences :)

brushfirefairytales — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 04:06:24 +0000

I want to watch a couple of broadway shows but I have no derbs to spend. Especially that its christmas, which entails a lot of celebrations, gift-exchanging, and all sorts of gastos. Then I see this Paramore poster. Its tickets are just like those for Cats, my favorite broadway musical, that I have the chance to finally watch live. I think to myself, if they are willing to shell out that kind of money for Paramore, why can’t I for Cats? But what about my Itouch? And my new phone? Argh. I want so many things. T_T

Also, one of my tita’s went home from Detroit so I’ve been busy with the family lately. I love it. Only on Christmas or on birthdays do I get to celebrate times with the non-biological family I have. So all of the missed Christmases and birthdays and celebrations were made up for this week and the last one. Family family family. I’m just so happy to experience having a big family. Hehe.

Yesterday was my favorite tito’s birthday. His birthday is something special to me, even if its not for him. Haha. That’s how much people love him, we always initiate the celebration for him. Anyway, last year, I still can remember how my tito’s birthday affected my leaving the band I used to be in. I understand that the band has to practice, so I joined them and told them I’d leave early. After practice, they won’t let me leave. It was terrible. When I got home, my tito was already sleeping. T_T Anyway, this year, to prove my family first motto, I skipped work for my tito. I was caught by my teamleader lying about a fake trip that I supposedly took when she saw me walking in front of my house. Hahaha. I fail at escaping now. For the past few months, I’ve tried a different approach. I always told the truth in all situations, whether at work or just in ordinary relationships. Once, I even told my boss that I’d skip work for a concert I’d attend because of our anniversary. She let me. Hahaha.

Anyway, I felt bad about lying but felt good that being busted is the only karma I recieved. Hahaha. Just felt like blogging because a couple of my high-school-ish friends in facebook ruined my morning. =| No, no. Not high-school friends. I’m happy to say that we’ve grown past that phase. Hehe. Later, I’ll have dinner with my family again. Another great thing about celebrations: good fooooood! <3

God give me strength to bear this mighty freedom.

brushfirefairytales — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 05:17:34 +0000

Okay so I am slightly jobless again. It’s a pity that this happened at this time of year. But what the hell, everything happens for a reason. Can’t decide what job to take on next.

In a nutshell

brushfirefairytales — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 02:36:15 +0000

Too much has been going on to even stop and write about anything at all. I barely have time to sleep or to relax. Not that I’m not happy about it, I am! I’ve been going out, earning money, having fun, reading books, taking pictures, having conversations, eating delicious food, attending gigs(!!!) and generally bonding with bf. ^_^

Although there’s been trouble in the office, I am hoping for the best, whatever that means. ^_^

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brushfirefairytales — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 03:08:17 +0000

I’ve had the most fun saturday. I watched The Ugly Truth with bf and it was hella funny. We wanted to eat at Shin Dang Dong but it was closed since October 3 is Korea’s Thanksgiving day so we ate at Kaya instead. Kaya is also a Korean resto btw. Afterwards we Karaoke-d and got zero scores for all songs. Hehehe there was a problem with the mic

Anyway, now my throat hurts. I have had many blogs starting with this sentence and until now it seems like I never learn. There should be a cure pattern that I will follow so instead of this being a useless complain, it will be something I’ll learn from in the future. Problem is, it takes a lot of time for me to get cured from such a problem so I forget to record it and forget how it happened. Argh. I am not in the mood to go to work today. I find it hard to speak, and worse, breathe. My nose has mucus and so does my throat. My eyes are swollen and so are my tonsils. What is happening?? I blame it on the crazy weather.

I’m looking for the hot hot hot ep.4 of Gossip Girl’s season 3 (which aired yesterday) but couldn’t find one. Suxors. Could have been a motivation to go to work today.

Testing

brushfirefairytales — Tue, 29 Sep 2009 02:16:10 +0000

Okay this is my first blog through e-mail. Hopefully this gets through. It has been raining for 3 days non stop from saturday till yesterday and now it’s sunny, finally! I usually don’t like it when the sun is this high, but today’s an exemption for others’ sake. See, the flood didn’t reach our house for the past three days and I feel so guilty for not suffering as much as the other people did. What pessimism I have! Anyway, I want to help out but I don’t have enough money or resources to share with those who lost their houses / loved ones. So what I do is I pray for those who need it and sacrifice as much as I can.

P.S. I bought neon colored nail polish last sunday! Can’t wait to try it on!